About The Checking

I wanted to continue talking about checking things over and over each day. As I'd said before, I'm not quite as bad with checking as I once was but I still do check on certain things. There was a period in my life where I would be driving to work or wherever and a thought would come to my mind that would make me begin wondering like for instance...
The coffee pot. I was so deathly afraid to leave the coffee pot on even though it has an automatic shut off on it I just couldn't bear knowing that there was a possibility that I'd left it on. So I'd literally have to turn my vehicle around and drive like a maniac back to my house just to make sure. Of course, once I arrived and saw that the coffee pot was off, I was relieved, not to mention embarrassed but more calm all the same and before heading off again for work, I'd have to make one more final sweep of the entire house to check all of the ashtrays. Getting to work on time was a great challenge for me then and it's a wonder that I didn't get pulled over for driving like I was at the Indianapolis 500. lol

Although I still worry about the coffee pot and the ashtrays, I seem to be able to be content with checking them a few times before leaving, (mainly the ashtrays) and my roommate always tells me that he turned the coffee pot off. He does his best to help me out and I so much appreciate him being understanding. I think it's pretty good that I don't have to drive back home anymore. I don't exactly know how I was able to overcome that but for some reason I don't feel the necessity to do that anymore.
That's another reason that I know that I can get rid of this OCD. I wasn't on any medication back then at all when I stopped checking as much either. Odd isn't it...

I've also noticed that my anxiety level is not as high when I have these little checking activities going on. It seems to just be something that I have to do without that fearful feeling coming over me. I really don't understand this but then again I don't understand lots of things about OCD.