Symmetry

I've been very tired all day and it's probably because I've been in a state of anxiety from the time I'd awaken early this morning until when I laid down earlier this evening. I'm no longer feeling anxious but I'm so drained.
Today seemed to be a day of organization. I am a very organized person especially at work. Because of my OCD everything is magnified in regards to this subject.
For example, if I have to stack anything the pile has to be completely rigid and straight. Like papers or boxes and if it's boxes all of the labels must be facing the same way. With papers, they have to be in order either numerically or by headings or sometimes in alphabetical order which can be a rather tall task. Also the papers have to be squared up neatly by the edges. It drives me insane if they aren't. I often wondered why it is so hard for my fellow coworkers to be this orderly but I now know that it comes so easily to me to keep things in order as I work because of my illness. It just comes naturally to me but the average person doesn't even think of these things in this way. I can be extremely anal at times. It's unreal.

The funny thing is that although I am so heavily organized at work, it's the opposite at home. I mean, I'm not a slob by any means. I do have the symmetry thing going on in some parts of my home but I can also be a pack rat too. My kitchen table is a perfect example. I have a problem keeping that area free from clutter. Most of the time it's just receipts from purchases or the bank. I don't know why it's so hard for me to throw store receipts away. It's crazy! And whenever I look at my kitchen table it drives me crazy but for some reason I'm not compelled to organize it until it just gets way out of hand. Then I'll go on a cleaning phase and get rid of all of the receipts, envelopes, pieces of mail or advertising crap and collect all of my bank receipts and put them away in an orderly fashion. When I can finally see my kitchen table I feel such a sense of relief! Unfortunately it only lasts for about a week and then I start all over again with the collecting of trash.

Outside of my weird kitchen habits, the rest of my house is pretty well in order. My bookshelves are neat, old record album collection stands neatly inside my large bookshelves and is in alphabetical order. I don't have company often but when I do, I almost always have to pick up behind them after they leave. I mean like if they have a soda or something to drink, they just leave it sitting anywhere in the house. That drives me up the wall! Or if they have a snack and leave the bag halfway open or even worse, they'll leave the bag out rather than putting it back in the pantry where they got it from. That just sends me over the edge ya know.
My computer desk is very organized. I have all of my pens together as well as pencils and markers. That's 3 separate sections. Actually, I have a lot of things on my desk that I never even use but everything is placed in a neat and orderly fashion.

Well, I'm gonna have to hit the hay before I fall asleep at this computer. Here's to hoping I have an anxiety free day tomorrow. Sweet Dreams.....